A few years on, despite my confidence, I realised that we are all lost. I sensed strongly the insecurity of the physical world. I had a strong compulsion to give up caffein, alcohol and meat and get to a place where I could trust that what I was actually feeling, was me.
I began to mediate again every day, sometimes all day. I remember I was at a dinner party and the lady next to me (having realised I wasn’t drinking) looked at me and said, “ what are you doing and how can I do that?” It was then that I realised I had something to share.